tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-86090489549433278672009-10-12T21:45:02.593-04:00I have changed this blog's title because the old title, no longer entirely applied. My faith is not just uncertain anymore so is my path. I don't have faith right now, but my path is so much more uncertain. My wife left me and my pain is so great. I'm sure this blog will never have hits as no one will ever read it, but I don't care. I'm not writing it for anyone but myself.spiritbyrdhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09939509157899329481noreply@blogger.comBlogger9125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8609048954943327867.post-58633026880858177132007-12-31T03:43:00.000-05:002007-12-31T17:47:57.260-05:00

I haven't been able to sleep at all tonight. I tried but I just ugly cried instead. I wish I could sleep but lately I just seem to be sleeping in the wee hours of the morning the best. Nights are the worst and now with the new year practically here I have a feeling it'll just get harder to sleep again for awhile.I was doing well for a little bit. The weight on my chest was easing and I was able

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Abby left me. I have tried to kill myelf twice since she has told me it's over.I don't know how to feel now. Especially with 2008 right around the corner. It's hard to breathe.And I don't know if I believe in God anymore. I begged him to kill me and he didn't.Some moments I miss her like crazy and other times I just miss the friendship we had. I don't know if we'll be able to stay friends. I

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So, I've seen this type of post at other blogsites and love reading through all the little tidbits people share about themselves, but then I started to think, could I really say 100 things about myself? I think it's a lot harder than you might think! Hope you enjoy this fluff posting and know I'll try and post something you can sink your teeth into next time.1. I'm only 4'11'' tall.2. I have

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I almost didn't go to the Unity Church on Sunday. I had this pimple on my left cheek that was a little puffy and I wasn't feeling very attractive because of it. All I wanted to do was hide myself until my face was back to normal again. But with Abby's sleepy-still-in-bed encouragement to still go do this for myself, I allowed myself to overcome my shyness and just experience something new for a

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Life sure has been busy lately. I don't think I've really had time to think much lately about anything let alone sit down and blog about it. But as a result a lot of really great things I could've blogged about will forever go unblogged. Oh well...I guess that happens occassionally, right?So, I did it. I went in for my four hour psychology evaluation on Thursday. Yep... I'm officially going to

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Recently I've started to visit the Post Secret website because I find it incredibly brave that folks would send it their biggest secrets to be posted on the web -- even if it is anonymous. I can imagine myself sending it my biggest secret and having the world read it knowing somehow that it was about me. That's a scary thought. That is a secret that only a handful of people know about, and I hope

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Pride was pretty great this year. It was wonderful to see all the vibrant colors and happy smiling faces of so many proud gay, lesbian, bisexual, transgendered people along with their family and friends. I didn't really feel apart of things, but I didn't feel quite alone either.We saw a few folks in the parade we knew and yelled and cheered extra loudly when they passed by. Abby even hopped on

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I think my world just imploded yesterday. I don't think I have ever felt that many emotions at once. Abby and I almost broke up. It was my worst nightmare and all I could think about was how much I loved her still. It hurt more than you can ever imagine.Finally though, she did say she wanted to give us another chance to try and work things out. I feel both relieved and angry about that. I want

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I'm not even sure how I feel about posting on here. Where do I start? At the beginning or where I am now, in the middle of the ocean? I guess I'll start at the beginning and give a little background...of course this is a assuming that someone will stumble upon my blog one day to peruse...how silly of me.I did not grow up with Christianity in my home as many of my fellow GLBT bloggers out there

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